Don't Blink

If I Could, I Would

2012-03-06T20:02:00.001+08:00

If my tears crystallize as soon as they are exposed to the cold air, I would collect and string them together. I would wear them as a necklace. Then you will finally see how I have suffered these unbearable nights, reminiscing the moments we shared. Perhaps it has always been a dream, an incredibly beautiful one and we were too blind to see through the mist.

These long nights, I'll get used to it someday.

My Glass Is Half Full

2012-02-27T00:51:00.001+08:00

I love you. I love you today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow. Please, cradle my heart in the palm of your hands and let it be drenched with my blood. Hold it under the moon, and it shall dissolve into your veins. Then, I will be yours forever.

Grasp me tightly and never let go, my beloved. I have never ceased to long for your comforting touch, your delicate fingers running across my lips and you would taunt me with your smile. It is every night, that I have dreamed of those eyes. Those glowing eyes, flickering between fiery red and pansy purple, and every time they blink a searing pain would tear me apart inside.

I wish you had come nearer to me. Because if you have I would sew my heart to your thighs and as you plunge into the glistening moonlight - so will I.

Self-Compassion Trumps Self Esteem

2012-02-18T22:00:00.002+08:00

What isself-compassion? What does it mean exactly?

Self-compassion entails three core components. First, it requires self-kindness,that we be gentle and understanding with ourselves rather than harshly criticaland judgmental. Second, it requires recognition of our common humanity,feeling connected with others in the experience of life rather than feelingisolated and alienated by our suffering. Third, it requires mindfulness—thatwe hold our experience in balanced awareness, rather than ignoring our pain orexaggerating it. We must achieve and combine these three essential elements inorder to be truly self-compassionate.

This means that unlike self-esteem, the good feelings of self-compassion donot depend on being special and above average, or on meeting ideal goals.Instead, they come from caring about ourselves—fragile and imperfect yetmagnificent as we are. Rather than pitting ourselves against other people in anendless comparison game, we embrace what we share with others and feel moreconnected and whole in the process. And the good feelings of self-compassiondon’t go away when we mess up or things go wrong. In fact, self-compassionsteps in precisely where self-esteem lets us down—whenever we fail or feelinadequate.

The bottom line is that according to the science, self-compassion does infact appear to offer the same advantages as high self-esteem, with nodiscernable downsides.

Self-compassionate people are better able to accept who they are regardlessof the degree of praise they receive from others. Self-esteem, on the otherhand, only thrives when the reviews are good and may lead to evasive andcounterproductive tactics when there’s a possibility of facing unpleasanttruths about oneself.

A series of researches, taken together, suggests that self-compassionprovides an island of calm, a refuge from the stormy seas of endless positiveand negative self-judgment, so that we can finally stop asking, “Am I as goodas they are? Am I good enough?” By tapping into our inner wellsprings ofkindness, acknowledging the shared nature of our imperfect human condition, wecan start to feel more secure, accepted, and alive.

It does take work to break the self-criticizing habits of a lifetime, but atthe end of the day, you are only being asked to relax, allow life to be as itis, and open your heart to yourself. It’s easier than you might think, and itcould change your life.

Source: StumbleUpon

Gone Fishing

2012-02-08T17:53:00.000+08:00

Hello and bye, guys.

I slacked throughout 2011, and I will not allow what has happened to my grades last year happen to me once again. This year I am brand new, I am not a lifeless puppet anymore. I hope people do not look at me the same way as before, because I'm going to make things happen.

I swear on River Styx that I will catch the biggest fish alive, and we shall all feast gloriously under the full moon.

Till we meet again.

Februum, Februa

2012-02-01T17:30:00.001+08:00

January has been, inevitably amazing. I'll miss you.

I promised myself that this is going to be a wonderful year, and I've already had a good start. I have a feeling that Tykhe's on my side now.

Goodbye misery, goodbye nightmares.

Stayover and Competitions

2012-01-31T13:03:00.002+08:00

Note: This is a very very very very postponed post, I didn't have the time and mood to write it then. So I'll just have to squeeze as much as I can remember from a month ago.

I went on a 5D4N trip to Shafei's house. Truthfully it wasn't a trip, so it wasn't exactly for recreational purposes. We're staying over because of two annual St John Ambulance competition. Details right below.

Day 1

Training in school as usual from 8a.m. to 4p.m. but the difference is, we all went straight to her house after the training session. When I said 'we' I actually meant 4 teams, a total of almost 30 people including trainers and ex-members. 30 under one roof, cool huh?

We had some brief last minute training at night, after having our dinner at Asia Cafe. Everyone was nervous we all had a hard time dozing off. But all managed to wake up in the morning, just in time for the competition.

Day 2

Woke up at 4.30a.m., bath and waited for the others to finish. Today we are taking part in the North East Area First Aid competition which only involves the first aid category. No foot drill, which was a relief for me.

Zhong Wei and Jonathan :D

Yi Tong, feeling down because we were a bit clumsy in the scene. I think the ex-members are trying to cheer us up. I forgot.

Cadet Girls' team. 1st Runners Up.

Cadet Girls' team. 2nd Runners Up.

Cadet Boys' team. Champion.

Adult Girls' team. CHAMPION. (See me?)

Day 3
No competition today, but we trained for the next competition which is on the 20th and the 21st of December. Although all of us still had that hangover from our previous triumphs, we managed motivate each other to train harder.

Day 4
Free School Competition.

This competition lasted for 2 days. Footdrill and Written Test on the first; Team Test and Home Nursing on the second. Results were satisfying in the end :)

This was my first competition experience, and I have to say - It was a wonderful holiday for me, I had a blast :D

My Year

2012-01-01T19:34:00.002+08:00

I have a sudden urge to post group photos I collected throughout last year. Pictures may not be clear, but as long as that precious moment is captured.

Note: Photos are not arranged chronologically.

Lembah Bujang Trip Organized by School's History Unit

Nelson's Farewell

Redbox with St John Members

Interact Club Installation Day

Group Picture with Add Math Teacher Ms Lee

Redbox with 4S1

St John Ambulance (State of Penang) Appreciation Dinner at Eastin Hotel.

Outing at Queensbay Mall with Shuenny, Mike, Shan and Kenneth.

HEHS St John Ambulance 40th Anniversary at Sunshine Square's Banquet Hall

Wan Ching's Birthday Celebration in Class

Visiting CCPS with Primary School Friends

Intel's Get SETT Workshop

2012 Resolutions

2011-12-31T14:35:00.000+08:00

Yay, so here's my list of resolutions for the year to come:

1. Be more organized.
2. Exaggerate less about puny things.
3. Be happy, no matter what happens. Smile even if things get worse.
4. Study harder, while having fun. Few people would understand this but, studying can be fun :)
5. Stop caring about what the others think of me. Be myself. Live with pride.
6. Eat more. Exercise more.
7. Continue adapting to a healthy sleep cycle and daily routine.
8. Improve in time management.
9. Improve my English.
10. Stop depending on the others for help. I will solve everything by myself.

The Last Day

2011-12-31T00:09:00.004+08:00

How are you spending your New Year's Eve?

New Year's Eve

2011-12-28T21:48:00.001+08:00

When you're in charge of the New Year's Eve ball drop (?) ceremony and the ball short circuited and stopped halfway in midair.

When you're a background singer for a super hot rock star, but you got stuck in the elevator right before the concert.

When a jobless woman handed you a list of almost-impossible-to-complete New Year resolutions and wants your help to accomplish them before midnight.

When you realized you don't have more than a day to live, stuck in the ward, but still dying to witness the new year ball drop from the hospital roof.

When you're rock star ex-boyfriend comes back and admit that he's wrong and wants to make it all up to you.

When you're driving through a road covered in snow and your car crashed into a road sign and you're late for an important ceremony.

When there's a competition in the hospital whereby the first baby delivered after midnight will win 25 thousand dollars and there are two couples fighting for the prize.

When Hollywood's greatest celebrities come together in one place, in one movie, in one awesome film.

Everything comes into place,
on New Year's Eve.

Le Fin

2011-12-16T21:42:00.002+08:00

Wish me luck guys. It's time where all our hard work finally pays off. I'm packing my luggage now, because I'll be staying in my friend's house tomorrow, for only one night. But that's enough to make me have a panic attack. Everyone has first times, this is the first time I'm representing SJAM in an inter-school competition. So really, WISH ME LUCK.

I never regretted though. I've been so busy this holiday I haven't revised anything yet. Accounts, History, Physics, Add Math. These are the four main subjects I've targeted since the final exams ended. Fuck my time management skills. And now, school's reopening really soon. With some of my best friends graduated, and the gang split up into 3 classes, my life is practically ruined.

Things to accomplish before school reopens:

1. Revise Chapter 9 and 10 for History.
2. Finish The Golden Compass.
3. And maybe try to read Keeping Faith.
~~4. Convince mom that I need a new phone.~~
~~5. New year outfits.~~
6. Upgrade my iPad to iOS 5. I'm slow I know .__.
7. Accounts (cough)
~~8. Adapt to a healthier sleep cycle.~~ (although I'm almost done with this one already, thanks to my daily trainings)
~~9. Norse Mythology (not a fan, but oh well)~~ Edit: I GIVE UP.
~~10. Finish reading my First Aid Manual.~~

That's about it.

The Parent Trap

2011-12-12T20:36:00.000+08:00

Imagine you're in a summer camp and you're playing sports. You're fencing with a fellow camper, and after the match you both take off your masks -

and see that-

You both look alike.

Annie James and Hallie Parker went through the exact same thing. After realizing they were twins, they decided to switch places when they go back home. Eventually when the parents have to unswitch them back, they would meet each other face to face and hopefully - fall in love all over again.

This movie is a remake of the 1961 family film of the same name, and it stars Lindsay Lohan playing a dual role as the twin sisters.

IMDb rated this movie 6.1, I'm giving it a 7/10 :)

You Are The Apple Of My Eye

2011-12-06T18:18:00.001+08:00

I never thought that a Chinese novel based film would become such a huge hit among us. I admit, I've underestimated Giddens and his works.

This is definitely one of the most touching movies I've ever seen in my life. After the movie I felt a sense of ambivalence, and I slept with a smile on my face that night :)

And this would be the very first time in my life, to regard an Asian guy as good looking. Ke Chendong is a hottie, especially when he does his sly smile.

The story is based on the author's real life experiences during his younger days. It may seem mediocre, like how a typical teenager's love life should be. However it's the actor's lines that seem to make the story interesting. The narration, the conversations between friends and between the main actor and actress. They just spark up the movie like that.

I cried 3 times throughout the movie, I lost control of my tears. I have not read the book (and probably would not ever) but according to my friends the story line's similar. This is definitely a must watch for all romance lovers.

I can't describe the feeling. The ending, especially, is so perfectly imperfect with a touch of humor. You guys have to go watch it to know what I mean. That feeling lingers in you for such a long time, you will never ever forget the existence of this story.

Cutest part of the film.

Heroes Are Not Made

2011-12-03T19:07:00.001+08:00

Heroes are born in Petaling Street.

3 Dec 2011 - A really funny movie, and if you listen closely to the narrations and lines by the actors, it tells a really sad story of how we were colonized by the British. But the story line is SO FUCKING FUNNY!

Me and Ching wanted to watch You Are The Apple Of My Eye after this, but unfortunately we can't get in. Still in a depressed mood, now that I've watch the trailer on YouTube. How many of you have watched it? And, how do you guys smuggle in?

Winter

2011-12-02T22:44:00.001+08:00

Hello, last month of the year. Probably my favourite month after June.
December means Christmas. December means snow. December means it's time to cherish every last moment of the year. December means redeeming myself so that next January, everyone sees a brand new me.

December is awesome :D It will be awesome.

P.S. Can't believe this year ended so fast. I'll never have enough of 2011. I'll miss every bit of those memories we had together.

Marry The Night: The Prelude Pathétique

2011-11-28T22:01:00.001+08:00

"When I look back on my life, it's not that I don't want to see things exactly as they happened. It's just that I prefer to remember them in an artistic way. And truthfully, the lie of it all is much more honest because I invented it. Clinical psychology tells us arguably that trauma is the ultimate killer. Memories are not recycled like atoms and particles in Quantum Physics, they can be lost forever. It's sort of like my past is an unfinished painting, and as the artist of that painting, I must fill in all the ugly holes and make it beautiful again. It's not that I've been dishonest, it's just that I loathe reality."

J'adore le café!

2011-11-28T18:48:00.001+08:00

I dedicate this post to my love - Coffee.

Love cannot be expressed in the form of words, so let's make these pictures talk ;)

(what I've always dreamed of doing)

(coffee art melts me)

(shuenny, if you're looking at this - THE CUP!)

It's amazing how coffee comes in so many different forms of beverages.

♥

Someday I'll have the chance to be a barista, in Starbucks. Oh, mon dieu.

Just Like That

2011-11-18T22:37:00.001+08:00

It ended almost too abruptly, this year. It was a year of change, a year of mediocrity but yet filled with the joy of kinship.

This, by far, is the worse way to tear us apart. The gang was formed only last year end, and now after being together for a year, they forcefully separate us. Enough of those. Time can't be turned back, no? So just to reminisce, I shall post a little about everyone in the family here.

宁晴裳婷彤昕霓；阳杰扬岷颂伟恺 :)

1) Shuning (I don't need a description, obviously.)

2) Wanching
Secretary of the Chinese Orchestra. Somehow we became pretty close this year and I got to know her more. She's a really nice person, a great friend you would treasure. Too bad she's going to 5S2 next year. Ugh, I'm gonna cry again. Who's supposed to wake me up when I fall asleep during Physics?

3)Yunshang
No word describes her other than demure, or maybe a little too innocent. Often, she would spew forth hilarious jokes and make everyone laugh, but... scenarios like this are particularly rare. She has a bright smile, like an angel, and it just makes you smile back unknowingly. Kind and helpful, truly a great sister one could ever have.

4) Kerting
We have our hardcore KPop fan right there. Proudly crowned 'The Daydreamress' in class. She's usually occupied with her Prefects' Board's tasks/duties that she often comes up to class late. Awesome girl to hang out with, yes.

5) Yitong
Best girl joker! Almost in everything she does, cheers us up. Although I don't really see these effects anymore these days since she's a little brought down by personal matters. But hey, if you're reading this, we're always rooting for you so don't give up! If you can't take all the pressure by yourself you still have 13 more lockers for you, remember? Best ~~friends~~ sisters forever.

6) Horyian
Her voice probably came from heaven. She's tiny and cute and full of aura, especially when she sings. A very dedicated musician, I think she plays the piano and the violin. You rock girl, I love you.

7) Xinni
Last but not least the eldest and the wisest. So what if her voice is soft? As soon as her lips part, the whole class falls into a deep silence and all eyes focuses on her. Just like that. Honestly she's the best class monitor I've seen in my life. I respect her so much. DAJIE, WE ALL LOVE YOU!

8) Jinyoung
Wushu dude. Whenever I see him I think of bamboos and monks. But seriously he's awesome in his way, with his impressive martial arts skill and his love for Chinese cultures. To be honest he's the one that got me into the blogosphere 3 years ago, but ironically he stopped blogging, while I never ceased to update more. He's a really good looking guy, and we all think when he finally has a girlfriend they'll be riding together in a Mercedes. Haha. Oh, did I mention he's the president of the Interact Club?

9) Leejie
The legendary Teh Tarik. He usually, and unfortunately becomes the protagonist of our class jokes. Sorry lj, we don't mean it but it's too hard to resist. We're sorry for the jokes, but that doesn't really mean we're going to stop making more new jokes next year, hah!

10) Tzeyang
A.k.a. GAGA. Why? Obviously becasue he's a hardcore Little Monster. Lady Gaga here, Lady Gaga there. Everything he does links all the way back to Gaga. And I'm happy to say that he's one of my closest friends in the group. That's probably why I'm a little monster too. I hope he's not too busy being the president of the Chinese orchestra and we can still talk to each other. Ahh, why 5S3, I hate you for not studying.

11) Yeebeng
ALL HAIL THE PERVERT. Yes I tried hard not to recall what he presented during Chinese Oral test. Beside being a P, he's also an Add Math freak I think. I'm not sure. All I know is he's always talking to girls which pretty much does us justice for calling him a pervert. LOL.

12) Nelson
Meet the guy who ditched us and flew all the way across Peninsular Malaysia to that little island named Singapore. But we're proud of him! I'll always remember the night before he left, all the status and comments that flooded my homepage and almost made me weep. Eggshell, see you after 4 years, bro!

13) Zherwei
Yo, class clown. I can't imagine a class without him, how are we gonna survive next year? He finds humour in almost everything and that's why the class is never dull with him. Sometimes even the teachers brighten up a little, thanks to him. Why, don't regret what you do. Mistakes are essential for growth, just so you know. Cheer up! We'll be with you.

14) Carl
And finally the last person. I've just thought of a word to describe him today. FEARLESS. Why? Because he actually brought his phone to school and plugged his earphones in without any trace of fear. Whoa, amazing right? We asked him to shut it off and keep the phone for at least 5 times but he wouldn't listen, lol. He lies Maroon 5 and so do I. Don't forget you have a family back here when you're in 5S2, those thin walls between classes can't keep us apart.

And so the 14 of us came a long way (or not). I've got nothing to say, except LONG LIVE FOUR-SCIENCE-ONE! The days we had will be etched deep in my heart, I will never forget you all. No matter where we are, I believe there will be a force, a love so strong that links us together - forever.

Adieu

2011-10-31T20:54:00.001+08:00

Farewell, brother.

Thanks for being part of my teenage years albeit just a short period of time.

All the best in your future, and please don't forget us all.

Remember that 4S1, and your 13 other siblings will always be there for you no matter what.

We'll miss you, and your sarcastic jokes in class, for sure :) 5S1 will never be the same without you.

You, are awesome!

Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetime, is certain for those who are friends.

- Richard Bach

Integrity

2011-09-28T01:51:00.001+08:00

It seems that this blog of mine recently returned to it's original state, as in for ranting purposes. So far life's treating me good although I noticed some slightly weird phenomena on me. But yeah people change right? So I guess it's okay :) Haha.

I think... my study schedule's all fucked up. Which leads back to one single word: Willpower. I have none. Save me, God. I can't seem to get off the Internet, as hard as I try. Sheeesh, this is so wrong for me. I should be putting more effort since this is our last exam. But instead of studying I'm here ranting about how I shouldn't be here. Ironic, duh.

Well at least my emotions are pretty under control now, no more suicide talk you know. Good sign! And I'm smiling more often, I think.The reason I smile because I constantly remind myself that I have a wonderful future ahead of me, I've got awesome friends - family, and I, myself, AMAWESOME. So why die, when you can live and get revenge at people who once made your life miserable? Right? The time will come where you show them a piece of you, when you finally get your payback.

This would be my last post until the exam's over. This time I mean it. Willpower, you're my only hope to escape this nightmare :)

Solitude

2011-09-22T19:09:00.000+08:00

Laugh, and the world laughs with you;
Weep, and you weep alone.
For the sad old earth must borrow it's mirth,
But has trouble enough of its own.
Sing, and the hills will answer;
Sigh, it is lost on the air.
The echoes bound to a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care.

Rejoice, and men will seek you;
Grieve, and they turn and go.
They want full measure of all your pleasure,
But they do not need your woe.
Be glad, and your friends are many;
Be sad, and you lose them all.
There are none to decline your nectared wine,
But alone you must drink life's gall.

Feast, and your halls are crowded;
Fast, and the world goes by.
Succeed and give, and it helps you live,
But no man can help you die.
There is room in the halls of pleasure
For a long and lordly train,
But one by one we must all file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.

---Ella Wheeler Wilcox

P.S. I think this is just plain beautiful, and true.

不要等

2011-09-15T23:45:00.001+08:00

一、不要等到想要得到愛時才學會付出

二、不要等到孤單時才想念起你的朋友

三、不要等到有了職位時才去努力工作

四、不要等到失敗時才記起他人的忠告

五、不要等到生病時才意識到生命脆弱

六、不要等到分離時後悔沒有珍惜感情

七、不要等到有人讚賞你時才相信自己

八、不要等到別人指出才知道自己錯了

九、不要等到家財萬貫才準備幫助别人

十、不要等到臨死時才發現要熱愛生活

Melodramatic

2011-09-12T23:42:00.001+08:00

"The art of suicide, griitty and clean
conveys a theatrical scene,
'alas, I've gone.' she cried -
veins displayed,
melodramatically laid..."

I'm sorry for ranting again. I know very well that this is just life, this is how everyone's life has been, but I seem to be making a fuss out of minor things all the time. Problems will never cease - they're coming after me like swarms of wasps.

I wake up in the morning always trying to feel refresh, but instead I feel like a pile of dog poop. When I reach school it doesn't get any better. Even until the day ends, if it does not get worse (which I will be thankful if it happens), it remains at the same level of crappiness. So when will it turn out better? Well I know, until they day I truly learn how to manage myself and discipline myself, I will never be truly happy.

I won't ask anymore questions. Unlike how I used to react, I actually know what to do now. I know my mistakes and I'm sure that if I put enough effort... problems will be gone almost immediately. Now the big picture: I don't put enough effort.

The obstacle had been myself all along. I procrastinate like there's no tomorrow. It just feels so.. right. I'm probably hedonistic. But I don't wanna be like that, because I wanna do something with my life and not just live aimlessly on Earth. Carpe Diem. I want fame and success. Yes, who cares if I'm greedy.

It's pretty clear now. I need to get rid my internal emotional conflicts, once and for all :)

I'll Never

2011-08-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

Give up. On anything. Everything.

I know I've always been suicidal and grim, and sometimes people get sick of me being like that. But I guess that's how I really felt all the while. I don't like hiding feelings from people. Hypocrisy is... what I despise most.

I don't know why I'm here now. I just had this sudden urge to blog. Anything. Don't ask me why, I've been pretty sentimental lately. Maybe it's because of exams, and I've gotten insane.

Am I a science person or a literature person? This, is the question. Science is what keeps my mind working, and literature my heart. I can't tell which side do I prefer, you know. And then all of a sudden I like History. Islamic History. Yeah don't say a thing.

Still, I don't know what to write. All I know is I have to fight for my future. For what I deserve, and surely I don't deserve any less than the best. This exam, I've had enough. No more procrastination, no more lame excuses for not studying. I'm starting to get sick of this 'cause this has been said over a million times in Facebook, Twitter, and undeniably - here.

Enough is enough.

Exam Sentiments

2011-08-26T17:47:00.002+08:00

Dear Chinese, Malay and English,

I'm glad you weren't as hard as I expected. Thank you for your kind and well appreciated consideration. I promise I'll improve next time. Since you're coming at me with a grenade launcher next time, I'll be fully prepared to sprint out and throw it back at you. Just you wait.

Love,

Shuning

Dear History,

I can never express my love for you in words. All you have to know is I love you genuinely, sincerely and deeply. But why do you keep ignoring me? Please, love, grant me my wish. Love me back, you know I'll always love you the most. You know I do, right?

Sincerely,

Shuning

Dear Add Math and Math,

Yes, I admit I've been neglecting you for quite sometime. I'm sorry, it's entirely my fault. I'll make it up to you, promise. I'll spend more time with you even though you make me feel depressed. I'll try not to pull all my hair out when I'm with you. Just - please - work with me, thank you.

With hope,

Shuning

Dear Chemistry, Physics, and Biology,

There just isn't enough time. Why can't you feel my sincerity? Biology, I want to thank you for saving my sorry life even though I never really liked you. Who would've thought you'd sacrifice yourself to rescue me from depression? Sorry I gave up on you, maybe you're not that bad after all. But Chemistry, I loved you. I spent days worrying about you and why did you repay me with more pain and agony? Have you not have sympathy, too, Physics? Oh why this unrequited love. Why me? But it's okay, it's okay. All flawless relationships need time to bond. I will wait with patience and determination. I will wait until the day you finally realize I'm the one who will love you forever. I shall wait for you with all my heart.

Je t'aime,

Cordelia

No Place Like Home

2011-08-07T17:35:00.004+08:00

I spent the days before blindfolded
wandering behind a veil that
separates me from everything I cared for
The real world, is yet so far from reach.

I often peeked at your life
And wondered what would it become
If I were a part of it
Would I bring laughter, or would I bring tears?

As you stood up and wave
I did not want to wave back
This could be a dream, I mumbled
This could not be the end.

Our doors and windows are open
Always longing for you to turn back
To throw yourself in our arms, and scream
Because this is where we belong, together.

This is home
Like singing songs around a campfire

This, forever, is where we belong
Till death do us part.

Yes, August

2011-08-02T23:03:00.002+08:00

Please let me be financially stable, for once.
Please make sure I study a lot.
Please help me sort out my problems.
Please love me.
Please spare me from this solitude.
Please, just be good to me.

And I'll be good to you too.

Change

2011-07-31T20:42:00.003+08:00

Change is always a part of life.

Tomorrow, tomorrow. Tomorrow is the day I am reborn. Tomorrow I will not be the same, though I'm not sure if I'm just saying that now. I'm always not determined enough, please bare with me, please be patient, the day I become who I really want to be will come. I need time, because unlike those lucky people around me, I always don't get what I want. Why? Because I don't put effort into it. I finally realize my mistake, that it I never really fought for what I want. All I do is wish for it, which obviously has no use.

I swear, on River Styx, everything is going to be different from this second :)

Annual G. Meetings

2011-07-30T19:22:00.003+08:00

Remember McDonald's GCB? The G_____ Chicken Burger.When the burger was introduced a contest came along with it to see who can come up with the most creative and interesting name. I guess I'm doing the same today, with our school's AGM. So does 'G' stand for gruesome, great, gorgeous, or gut-wrenching?

Personally, I think that choir has been keeping me from participating in other activities for almost 3 years. I'm not good at singing, so why stay? And finally I realized Choir is such a waste of time. No offense Choir members, although I do mean to offend. Once I've joined Interact Club, I blend in really quick with them. I made new friends, learned new stuff, and overcome my own internal conflicts just in less than 3 months. I have my fellow Interactors to thank for this. You guys rock my world.

As for St John, I've never stopped loving this uniform unit since Form 1. The first day I joined SJAM, on our Meet-and-Greet day, the senior made me feel really at home. Unlike Choir where they torture us to death. And yet St. John is so much more disciplined then them. Shame on you, tsk tsk. You see, the St John people, they talk to you in a very sincere way, you can feel it. They don't ignore you when you ask them stuff and they don't look at you like you're an alien. Maybe I shouldn't compare St John to Choir, but this is the truth. And then compare St John to Interact, we've got a tie. Interactors, we interact, we communicate, we volunteer.

I've just realized that all of my societies are servicing societies. Reporters, Interact and St John. Which makes me a reporter, an Interactor and a First-Aider? Awesome.

When there's good news there's always bad news. No, the bad news is not about my posts. It's about me. I know my own limits and abilities, I can do paperwork, in fact I LOVE doing them. But handling pressures and burdens are not things than I'm good at. I am a master when it comes to procrastination. This is what I'm afraid of. I'm V.P. in Wartawan, Vice Sec. in Interact and Junior-in-Charge (Babysitter, in other words) in SJAM. They sound pretty cool to me at first, but when I finally settled down and thought about it, I realized I might have to deactivate my Facebook account. I can't possibly make time for that, can I?

My schedule is about to tip over, anytime now. And I have extra subjects Accounts and Economics to study for.

Also, my school result just fell into a bottomless pit. Um, help?

P.S. Lady Athena, what do I do?

Falling

2011-07-28T00:27:00.003+08:00

I'm in a relationship with Depression.

Life is a weird game. We would usually think that in a battle between good and evil, the good will always win while the bad would eventually be defeated and destroyed. That dragon boat incident last year -although I probably have nothing to do with it - left an imprint on me, a bad one. Who would've thought that someone in our school would share the same fate? I don't know him too, but this is so unfair. Life is so frigging unfair. If you say God does everything for a reason, then I seriously don't see any benefits from what happened.

To future me: You got 22nd in form this time. Will you please do something about it? Will you fucking stop staring at the computer all day long? I'm not going to be nice to you if the same goddamned thing happens again, I swear on River Styx. I'm warning ya.

To Sheryl,

2011-07-24T16:30:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to the most unique person I know. I love your poems, I love everything you write, and I love your blog. Wish I could write like you :)

Let this be your birthday present, in case I can't get you your Godiva. I love you.

16th of July

2011-07-23T20:12:00.001+08:00

Sorry about posting this really late. Let's get to the point, shall we? Went hiking with my fellow Interactors last Saturday morning, then we made mudballs after the activity. That day was also actually St John's Flag Day, which I missed it. Have I mentioned that I hate it when my schedule go bananas?

Arrived safely at out destination and all set to hike. Organizers distributed Nasi Lemak, which I didn't eat, I think.

Warm ups lead by Jun Shiang, before going up the hill.

Chang Shun. Those pants look so nerdy -.- It's okay he's doing it on purpose.

Yay us!

Uncle David giving a brief explanation before we officially start making mudballs.

Jackson trying to do something dumb -.-

Jelynn, or rather Laykoon :) She's so photogenic.

End product. *Big smile*

Photos aren't many because of the quality. I only took those that I think are of okay-okay quality, and those which I think are memorable.

The activities ended at 4, but I went home at 3. Transportation difficulties, lol. And guess what I'm doing at night? You'll never guess it, I'm going to ASTRO's Star Quest Finals. Watching it live! :) So excited.

Met up with the gang in Home's Cafe, D' Piazza.

We're outside of PISA. Ching, you look gorgeous here!

Recognize him? Danny Boy, from Motosikal 2.0. He replaced Bernard on the show.

AND AND AND THIS :D Geraldine! Champion of the night. So glad we get to take pictures with her! *screams*

That's 10 of us. Epitome of 4S1, and of awesomeness.

Food. Life.

2011-07-20T00:06:00.003+08:00

Food totally makes me happy. Heck, it makes everyone happy. I eat when I'm upset, when I'm excited, when I'm depressed, when I'm delirious, when I'm furious, when I'm ecstatic. Why drugs, when you have all these alluring food around you? One glance, or one bite - and all your worries vanish into thin air.

I know it's almost midnight, but I'm forever hungry so it's reasonable for me to crave for food at this time of the day. You can't stop me.

Froyo

Thanks to shuenny, ever since she brought me to J.Co, I've been craving for these froyos non-stop.

Starbucks Coffee

How about a cup of steaming hot Signature Hot Choc?

Java Chip + Frappucino + Ice Cream = BEST COMBINATION EVER.

Hershey's

A bar of chocolate will certainly keep me awake for the whole night.

Auntie Anne's Pretzels

How could you not drool at the sight of this beauty? Oh, sour cream and onion's my all time favourite.

Chocolate Fondues

Yes, while you guys are bickering over puny stuffs, I'll be busy dipping and munching away these exotic pieces of heaven.

P. S. - Nutella is officially off the list, and it won't be back for quite some time. So is PB&J. And I am very very sure that none of the items above will be ruled out, not in the next 3 months. Imagine life without 'em, absolutely horrifying.

I'm Obssessed With

2011-07-19T00:04:00.005+08:00

PHOBIAS. Yes, you heard me.

I never knew there were actually so many phobias, and they don't even exist in dictionaries. Oh my they're so interesting, especially those with funny names and stuff. You guys might wanna know some cute ones:

Alektorophobia- Fear of chickens.

Anglophobia-Fear of England or English culture.

Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single.

Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut buttersticking to the roof of the mouth. (This. Is. WIN.)

Atychiphobia- Fear offailure.

Bacteriophobia-Fear of bacteria. (How do these people survive?)

Barophobia- Fear of gravity.

Caligynephobia- Fear of beautiful women. (That's new.)

Cathisophobia- Fear of sitting.

Decidophobia- Fear of making decisions.

Didaskaleinophobia- Fear of goingto school.

Euphobia- Fearof hearing good news.

Gallophobia or Galiophobia- Fear of France or French culture.

Germanophobia- Fear ofGermany or German culture.

Gerascophobia- Fear of growing old.

Hadephobia- Fear of hell.

Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia- Fear of the number666.

Hippophobia-Fear of horses.

Ithyphallophobia- Fear of seeing,thinking about or having an erect penis.

Japanophobia- Fearof Japanese.

Paraskavedekatriaphobia- Fear of Friday the 13th.

Philophobia- Fearof falling in love or being in love.

Zeusophobia- Fear of God or gods.

So many cute stuffs to be afraid of. There's even fear of belly buttons, whut?

Lembah Bujang, what?

2011-07-15T18:38:00.002+08:00

I mentioned about a field trip to Lembah Bujang in my last post, and now here it is:

Our first stop was the museum (or was it?). I don't have a vast memory about where we'd went, because I wasn't paying much attention. I doubt any of us were. All I remember seeing in the museum were weirdly shaped artifacts that look more like sex toys rather than cooking utensils.

Note: The photos below belong to Joseph. Thank you, dude.

Zherwei (Left): Gay; Leejie (Right): Debating whether to let him kiss or not.

Yitong looks like she has long hair :D - What am I doing?

We're at some historical site where there are nothing but temples. And they don't even look like temples. But who cares, they sure make a great spot for taking photos.

The L-O-V-E.

(Leejie is sleeping. Leejie is sleeping. Leejie is sleeping.)

Zherwei: All I see are ASSES.

Us: You see ass, we see Friendship!

(conversation rephrased)

So Leejie finally let Zher Wei kissed him, and now they're officially engaged! Aww, how sweet.

(Leejie is sleeping, again.)

Aren't they cute? =)

Twelve of us, with Pn Tan.

Lovin' this pose. Can you spot me? :P

Outside the museum.

I took this! Please tell me it really looks like a wedding photograph! It does, right?

Poor little pack of Chipsters. Being tossed around by a pack of ravenous, merciless demons. Haha :)

I bet you can't see him. Gaga's attempt to touch that tree branch. Or, at least, the leaves. I like the effect of the photo - Joseph, you rock.

Oh my, Zherwei, what a big MOUTH you have.

I took this too! Kerting, you look awesomely awesome! Me like your facial expression :)

And to end this post,

We're 4S1.

We're loud, we're insane, we're inseparable,

we're the craziest bunch of hooligans you've ever seen.

To The Dark Side

2011-07-10T23:06:00.002+08:00

Suddenly everyone's trying to change. Blogger's dashboard, Google's sidebar, Tumblr's dashboard, Facebook's chat box. Any idea what's happening?

My camera is well rotten at home, which explains the fact that I did not post any photos taken on my own recently, I don't feel like bringing it out. I'll post about my Lembah Bujang trip soon, photos are taken by Joseph and Cheanghee. It wasn't technically a trip though, the attractions were pretty boring if you'd asked m - the usual historical/ archeological site with lots of stones and rocks and broken pieces of porcelain vases.

The real fun we had was on the bus, really. After all we're 4S1, we're the awesome troblemakers and sound pollution projectors. I shall elaborate more on that particular post.

I still suck at managing my own time. Help, anyone? I have homework and I'm on Facebook and Tumblr and playing Solomon's Keep on my ipad. Oh Solomon's Keep - my new addiction, although all I do is die and start over the level again. How embarrassing.

Concert essay, here I come.

10 Words You Need To Stop Misspelling

2011-07-07T21:32:00.000+08:00

Tumblr = WIN.

Drowsy

2011-06-28T00:35:00.001+08:00

You know, that dizzy feeling you have when you're a teensy bit drunk? When you can almost see stars twinkling on your bedroom ceiling? And when you try to open your eyes, you see more stars? Haha. I'm having one of these beautiful moments now. No, I'm not drunk, mind you. I found a new secret sanctuary. A place, where pictures are languages. No words, no sound, hidden from the outside world. I found - Tumblr.

Do visit my Tumblr, I personally think it's an awesome way of relaxing. So obsessive.

The Rise of Kronos

2011-06-25T23:54:00.004+08:00

This is probably my favourite book in the series, now that I've reread it. Last I read this book, I was in Form One, during choir. I was so bored I simply asked Sheryl for a book, in case I fall asleep and I get myself into trouble. She handed me this.

Now look at the book, the cover is amazing. The top portion of the picture is Percy Jackson armed with his celestial bronze sword Riptide, ready to lift the lid of the golden sarcophagus. Inside the sarcophagus was................

The lower portion of the image is the full view of the Labyrinth, a magical maze built by Daedalus which expands on its own every single second. If I'm correct, the mountains rising up from the maze over there is Mount St. Helens. And at the far right, the Empire State Building.

Kampe, the jailer of Hekatonkheires, looking as horrible as she would ever be on the cover of the book. I'm not sure where Percy had gotten the shield he's holding. Kampe was the first monster Percy and company encountered in the Labyrinth. Read the book to know more, duh.

I could hear the anguished cry of Daedalus calling his son's name, as Icarus, his only joy, plummeted towards the sea, three hundred feet below.

Everyone knows the myth about King Minos and the Minotaur? Ah yes, this is when Daedalus was trying to escape from the Labyrinth he had built. He built bronze wings for himself and his son Icarus. But while escaping, Icarus was too carried away that he flew a little too high. He shed bronze feathers and then his left wing fell off. Well, you can't fly with only one wing.

I've spent my whole life looking for you. Now... I release you.

Finding the Great God Pan, God of the Wild, was a satyr's greatest goal in life. Pan had been missing for over two thousand years because of the pollutions on Earth. He lost his realm, his sanctuary, his life force and has retreated from the world above. Since then, satyrs all over the world had been searching for him, desperately, high and low, not a single corner of the world was left untouched... except for the mighty Labyrinth.

Topsy Turvy

2011-06-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

Since the beginning of the semester which is 13th June, I've been determined to change and well, I did. Funny, I'm handing in homework on time, and paying a lot more attention to the teacher. But, I haven't taken a single short nap since then. Paperwork is piling up, paperwork from all my societies all stacked up on top of me and I'm suffocating in them. I guess I'll have to sacrifice, and that explains why am I still here blogging at 1 in the morning.

I owe you guys a decent post, I'm constantly reminding myself. Lately depression -or not- has taken over me again and I'm trying my very best to work out a schedule that will make me finish everything as fast as possible without draining much of my energy.

I'm learning how to multitask too. I've just found out that I cannot write and talk at the same time without completely pausing either one of them. And yet I thought I can. And I get butterflies in my stomach whenever I think of those unrevised exercises, those that I have not a single clue what the teachers taught. Those that I really need to revise and understand on my own. That's sort of my new way of studying since this year, no more group studying - just plain ol' me-and-my-book-alone time at home.

I promise I'll update more often again. Like I used to. I hope you understand that I'm not getting bored of blogging, but I'm getting lazy and I've ran out of topics.

:)

Significance

2011-06-14T00:32:00.001+08:00

Hey look, I didn't meant for this post to be all pinkish and girly and not so me alright? But under the circumstances, these are the perfect symbols :)

Happy World Blood Donor Day ;)

So proud of myself. Is this some kind of heavenly sign that I should be venturing in the medical field when I grow up? I hope it is, me love medics.

Happy Kiss Valentine's Day :D

I'm not a very big fan of Valentine's but, hey - It's on my birthday so who the heck cares? As long as it's something worth noticing, right? To all the couples around the world (except for Justin and Selena, maybe), I hope you have a wonderful time together.

Lastly, no. No, I'm not trying to use this as a hint to tell everyone that it's my birthday. I'm just very very blessed to have these two events going on on the same freaking day that I was born. I've always thought that my birth date is pretty easy to remember and it has a nice ring to it, I don't know why but it's just that. I like it. So, umm, enjoy your day donating blood and kissing your soulmate! :)

2011-06-12T19:03:00.000+08:00

I'm holding on to the tiniest strand of life and hope. I hope Pandora's Box is guarded, safe. More time, please. I wince as tomorrow approaches me, pointing Katoptris at me. I see images of blood and rotten corpse flickering on the blade, and...

I passed out.

I said I couldn't care less about my results this time, because I hadn't put all my heart into it. No effort done to save my grades so far. No time? No mood? No, that's not it. It's something about my emotional conflict, again. Struggling is all I've been doing lately, avoiding questions, backing out at responsibilities.

I really hope I solve these problems soon, but I realized - not long ago - that when I usually want to do something, I quickly forget about it and not long afterwards it comes all back to me and then I'll be repeating the whole process again... The problems are never solved. So please, someone please, be kind enough to remind me of these problems, remind me to do something. And remind me to stop imagining things that are far too impossible for me to achieve. Although they say, dream big, but no - my dreams never came true. And they never will.

I'll be happier when all the leaves fall, when the trees are left with only their dull branches.

Woke Up

2011-06-10T00:24:00.000+08:00

I woke up from my nightmare - 9 days of horror is finally over and I seriously need to sleep for 3 days straight. But sadly, I've got lots of things that I need to finish before this Saturday. And that means, sleep deprivation. Again.

China wasn't fun. It was the stories that our tour guide told us that was interesting :) The fact that China, from their culture to their politics, all rely on Feng Shui and superstitious beliefs. President Mao Tze-Tung is pretty awesome too.

Beijing is all walk and no ride, if you know what I mean, and it sucks. The Forbidden City was longest walk we went through throughout the trip, from the entrance to the exit. I'm officially terrified of walking and running. Ironically KOMTAR Run is on this Sunday, I don't know if I can endure the dreadfulness of

1. Running I-don't-want-to-know-how-many kilometres around KOMTAR and 1st Avenue Mall,
2. Up KOMTAR Tower all the way to the 60th floor, then
3. Further to the 8th floor of 1st Avenue Mall, where the finishing line is.

But to get to Sunday, I'll have to get pass Saturday. That's what I'm more afraid of., because my mind is on the verge of destruction, like Quillan. Which once again reminds me of Pendragon and how awesome the series is. I miss Bobby so much.

Amazing isn't it? How the human mind works by linking a thought to another. From here to the other side of the universe.

And to end this tedious post I would like to wish my brain and my muscles good luck. For the rest of the year and the next. So many things, so many duties I never knew existed. So much work to do and so much pressure to endure. Life is changing at this point, can't be too stubborn either. So get ready for an innovated and improved me, but first I would need some time.

I Don't Wanna Leave

2011-05-29T21:38:00.000+08:00

Surprise surprise, I'm heading to China is less than six hours. But, I don't wanna go.

I am going to miss:

St. John's Intergroup Training (I'm effing assistant trainer, and I'm missing all the fun)
Interact Club's Cara Wash Project
School Reporter's Motivation Camp
International Chocolate Fair @ PISA
Accounts tuition (Which I enjoy going to)
Red Box Gathering with my awesome classmates
St. John Motivation Camp Meetings
Youth Jam's Treasure Hunt
Edge of Glory's performance in the semi-finals (They're playing Czardas. Fuck.)

Fuck. I knew China was never a good place to visit.

Willpower

2011-05-23T03:13:00.001+08:00

Once again. I went to bed at 4 am in the morning on Saturday, just because I wanted to finished studying Physics before I could get some sleep. But then, yesterday was Saturday so it wouldn't matter if I woke up late on Sunday. Now look, it's a Monday morning. It's bloody 3am, and I am here. Lying sideways in bed, with one hand supporting my iPad and the other fingers hopping around the screen. I still have to get my ass up and change into my pyjamas later. It feels so good, though.

I've been torturing my eyes for - I'm not so sure myself - 10 hours? That's long. I've never been in such a rush, since I usually am pretty well-prepare for exams. But not this time. Excuse? I'm busy; Reason? I'm lazy.

But yes :) I think I managed to put in ~~some~~ more effort this weekend. So far, Physics and Biology's gotten rid of. History is a drag. Yes I love it, but cramming them at the eleventh hour is not a good idea. Note to self: Revise History whenever you can. Oh right. And. I'm in love with Starbucks. Partly because of Tumblr, and partly because of how peaceful it is for me to study. Hot Chocolate! Exotic.

I'd better crash. 3 hours of sleep and I'm a goner. Biology, please be good to me. I've done everything I can, you know. I love you so much.

Good night.

Logarithms, anyone?

2011-05-20T23:47:00.000+08:00

Serious, Mr Cheah YH needs to be banned from setting exam questions.

This is a true confession. I didn't study enough this time. I don't know if I was busy or just plain lazy, but I started Biology a week before the exam. Which is not what I usually do. I didn't even finish revising Add Math, I have absolutely no time. I spent too much time on Sciences, and neglected Add Math, and Math.

And I actually forgot to memorize the definitions for Moral.

Now I suddenly remember Sejarah.

Four more subjects. I need to focus. I keep posting those motivational phrases on Facebook or Twitter, but none of them seems to work. Like these thoughts flashed across my mind for a nanosecond, and then after that it's back to me and the social networking world again.

I don't feel depressed (except Add Math) or nervous. I felt... weird. Yeah that's it, but I don't know why either. I don't try to memorize things anymore now, I try to understand them logically and they'll just make sense and I'll remember. I hate studying like a zombie.

So I realized that since I won't have time to start revising. I'll just have to not stop revising. That way I'll never have to start, since I'm already revising all the time. Please don't think that I'm weird, I'm scared of SPM. And I won't forgive myself if I don't get straight As.

Turkish March

2011-05-15T00:04:00.001+08:00

Can you guys please do me a favour? My friends recently participated in Youth Jam's Talent Search, and they desperately need a lot of votes :) Their audition is rather unique, I would say. A cello, an Erhu, and a duet on the piano, playing Mozart's Turkish March - Rondo Alla Turca.

The Top 3 winners will go straight into the Finals without having to enter the semi-finals, which means the winners won't have to be filtered by the judges. Your vote is extremely vital. They are currently ranked at No.6, but there's still a long way to reach more than a thousand votes.

I don't know how to get the html code for videos posted in Facebook -.- You'll just have to click here to vote.

Voting ends 22nd of May, so hurry up, and thank you :D

How to Vote:
1. Click LIKE: http://www.facebook.com/WIOEvents
2. Click LIKE: http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150180933208891

Big Bad Wolf

2011-05-07T20:27:00.000+08:00

I seriously love this movie.

..because it features the ever-gorgeous Amanda Seyfried!

I had to watch it, I must, that's what I told myself after discovering this movie. I mean, Amanda! I couldn't care if my mid-term is coming, this is far more important.

Now I am proud to say - the sacrifice I made was worth it. What sacrifice? Well, I spent the whole afternoon at Queensbay instead of hitting the books at home. Friends told me the movie wasn't that scary, but I was scared to death. Okay maybe I am a bit - fine, a lot - timid. And critics even said that the movie was a bit cliche, having a lead female role and two lead male roles. Just like the Twilight Saga.

When the wolf attacks

I love thriller movies. I love it when those flashbacks at the endings where the mysteries are revealed. Those moments are priceless. And then you would slap yourself on the forehead and think, why hadn't I noticed it? It was so obvious! This is exactly the type of movie that keeps you brainstorming for answers - for one and a half hours.

For the unlucky ones who haven't had a chance to check this movie out. You really should. As soon as possible. It's going to leave you spellbound.

NigaHiga

2011-05-02T11:29:00.000+08:00

Recently my friends got me hooked on to this YouTube celebrity - Ryan Higa. I'm pretty sure everyone has heard of him. His videos are hilarious and, well, hilarious. Obviously I wouldn't burst out laughing - on my own, in my room, at night - for no specific reason.

Dear Ryan, I love you!

Off The Pill - Farts

Off The Pill - Rebecca Black

Daily Life of Rustin Hieber

See? He's cute. TEEHEE :)

Moviemania

2011-04-30T21:01:00.001+08:00

Fine, 2 movies in 2 days shouldn't be listen as a -mania.

Black Swan deserves the Oscar Award, not The King's Speech.

I still don't know why I cried, after months of complaining that my tear ducts are not working, I finally wept. I wept a river. Probably used up half the tissues in the tissue box. I can't explain it, I don't know if cried because the movie was touching, or was I happy, or sad?

I think I cried because I can relate to what Nina went through. She was dazzling and breathtaking. Not on the outside, but on the inside. And there's one part where Beth takes a knife and started stabbing her own face, absolutely beautiful.

She hallucinated. She grew feathers. She killed herself. She was perfect.

Christina looks pretty and young in the movie.The storyline is a little cliche, but their vocals are amazing. Xtina and Cher's voice are godly!

It's a life, it's a style. It's a need, it's Burlesque.

Eggs

2011-04-24T23:59:00.001+08:00

I have 11 minutes till today ends.

Happy Easter Everyone! :)

A few glances at the eggs me and my friends made.

Shuenny. She spent more than 2 hours doing this.

Yitong :) Cute, no?

Mine on the left and Mum's on the right. Hard to believe that she actually agreed to paint the eggs with me and my bro. Took us less than an hour to complete 3 eggs.

Where's the other egg? My bro dropped it on the floor and it cracked and it's too embarrassing to post it here.

It was Wenjuin's idea, I think, to bring Easter eggs to the post-anniversary celebration at Hard Rock Cafe. In the end I brought back the eggs, nobody answered me when I asked them about the egg exchanging. Oh well :|

Bad Things

2011-04-20T17:31:00.000+08:00

Happen on 20th April.

Today is indeed an unlucky day:

Yitong forgot to bring my History textbook to school, and so we borrowed it from 4S5, which was 3 corridors and 2 blocks away from our class.
Assembly was cancelled, which means Add Math was prolonged to 2 periods. I didn't bring my Textbook.
Chinese teacher was absent. Me, Yitong and Yunshang ate in class. Then unfortunately the teacher came in early and caught us eating. Got a fking demerit.
Went to see the disciplinary teacher and I had to copy the synopsis of our novel for 4 times as punishment. Totally wrecks my study schedule.
We forgot to return the History textbooks. Panic attack.
Turns out that crazy teacher went spreading the whole eating-in-class incident in the teacher's staff room. I think a minimum of 6 teachers knows about that now. And it will get worse, no doubt.
The PK HEM disapproved the scholarships me and Yitong were going to apply for.
We didn't get to eat the passion fruit Jinyoung brought to school.

This is how I deal with these stuffs: I laugh and laugh and laugh. In other words, I was laughing the whole day, because sometimes joking about things is how I make my way through. People might not get my jokes, but as long as I don't get furious and lose my temper, it's good. It seems that when I'm being optimistic, people around me suddenly turns pessimistic, and then vice versa.

The end of the world is coming, why are you guys not happy? :)

Lucious;

2011-04-16T01:31:00.001+08:00

Insomnia again. Second day in this week.

Oh Hell no.

Foundation, Eye Liner and Fake Eyelashes

2011-04-10T21:02:00.009+08:00

I never knew putting on make up was this fun :) I guess this will be my first and last time putting on make up which is that thick.

Eye shadow and fake eyelashes. I never knew we had to use glue to stick the eyelashes onto our eyelids. I was so scared that my eyelids would be stuck forever -.-

End product. That thing on my head is a masquerade mask, FYI. Credits to Crystal for my hair and Pn. Lian and Hoi Menn for my make up :)

Victoire!

2011-04-10T13:44:00.009+08:00

I wasn't one of the anniversary's organizing committee, but I can feel the burden loaded on their backs. Organizing such a grand event was not an easy job. Compared to the anniversaries, CLHS and PCGHS held every year, this was beyond godly. The decorations were fabulous that night. Everyone who went. I am sure, was amazed.

I remember that when I first joined St. John, some seniors had talked about this anniversary thing. As they talked about it, 3 years became 2 years, then a year, then a few months, then weeks. I can't believe on Friday, everyone was saying, TOMORROW is our anniversary! I never thought that I'd be a part of this event, that I'd be on stage.

St. John will always be a part of me. And this night, will always be etched in our hearts.

Well you might have noticed me in that thick make up and looking weird, I didn't planned it that way, in case you think I'm a whore or slut or bitch. For my defense, All the other fashion show models were asked to put on make up like that. And my hair? It was rather different from the other models but I liked it.

And since my hair was sprayed with thick gel, I couldn't wash it off and my hair stayed the same way for the entire night. I was hoping I could change my hairstyles between the fashion show and my performance. Oh well. Oh and those fake eyelashes made my tiny eyes even tinier. So in certain pictures, from certain angles, I look downright weird.

Our fashion show models.

That's me and Shuenny singing fearless.

The PA system that night was awful. Blame Sunshine Square. The microphones were problematic since Friday's rehearsal. I thought they'd have the problem solved by then, but sadly, they didn't. My mum, who was sitting at the front table, said she couldn't hear my voice; My friends, sitting at the last row, told me they heard my voice quite loud. So, whut?

I was bending my knees, and he was tiptoeing. Well, in case of misunderstandings, I wouldn't be in a relationship with someone shorter than me, mind you.

See the heart shape me and Shuen made?

We are a family, we stick together through rain or shine, thick or thin. We give each other strength, and hope. We'll always be there for each other, and we know we'll never be apart.

Happy 40th Anniversary,

St. John Ambulance of Heng Ee High School!

Sucker Punch

2011-04-03T23:38:00.001+08:00

Jamie Chung, Amber from Sucker Punch. And I think she's pretty. Oh if you think she looks familiar, she also stars in the Disney Movie with Selena and Demi, Princess Protection Programme.

My first outing with friends at 1st Ave. I took a taxi after choral speaking practice with Tzeyang, Yunshang and Jinyoung and managed to watch Sucker Punch, just in time. Okay I think the fighting parts are boring, and the sound of bullets being fired every 3 seconds almost put me to sleep. The storyline is pretty complicated too. I think it's something like a fantasy within a fantasy.

A young girl (Baby Doll) is locked away in a mental asylum by her abusive stepfather where she will undergo a lobotomy in five days time. Faced with unimaginable odds, she retreats to a fantastical world in her imagination where she and four other female inmates at the asylum, plot to escape the facility. The lines between reality and fantasy blur as Baby Doll and her four companions, as well as a mysterious guide, fight to retrieve the five items they need that will allow them to break free from their captors before it's too late...

- From IMDb

It's sad that 3 of the girls died in the end, and Babydoll realized that it wasn't her story all this time. Oh btw, the part where she got lobotomized and the orbitoclast was covered in blood. I was expecting to see a hole in her left eye -.- wtf

This post shall end here.

Beastly

2011-03-27T16:18:00.000+08:00

I am so behind the bandwagon. Finally watched Beastly, but Black Swan and Burlesque is still on my 'Movies To Watch' list.

I don't know why some of my friends hate her, I mean, Vanessa Hudgens is pretty. I like her voice too.

The movie is so friggin' short, but it's touching though. I have to confess, Alex Pettyfer looks better when he's transformed into that ugly beast. I so dig his tattoos and scars and the metal piece on his face. Effyeah.

Oh yes, Kendra. I mean, Mary-Kate Olsen. I've always like the antagonists. Kendra is beautiful and amazing. Maybe it's because she's an enchantress too. Oh I don't know, I just like her in some way, more than Lindy and Kyle.

Before you scream, yes this is Neil Patrick Harris aka THE Barney Stinson. This is embarrassing but I'm still a HIMYM virgin. Blame my television. It's so old that when you turn it on the screen is green and you can't even watch a show without getting depressed. And I have to go to my parents' room whenever I want to watch something, like Hannah Montana, JONAS L.A., The Suite Life on Deck and Shake It Up. Oh and the worst part is, I don't have HBO and Fox. Yeah, so who has a miserable life?

Back to the topic -.- Barney Stinson is in Beastly! He's Will Fratalli. He's blind and amazing, like Andrea Bocelli. Okay, scratch that. He is just fucking hilarious, and I'm sure everyone who has watched the movie loves him :)

We never knew what happened to Kyle's Dad, eh? Who cares, I hate him.

Obessive

2011-03-17T21:57:00.001+08:00

Those sketches of Hollywood artists they have in Deviantart, are so obsessive I keep searching from Britney to Gaga to Taylor =)

Even my Mom likes Taylor :D

This reminds me of how much Telephone's music video means. Those people who say Gaga is imitating, you don't know how awfully wrong you are.

Still the beautiful bitch I know.

And my favourite. Britney kissin' Madonna :)

Of course I posted this out of boredom. And of course there are a lot more of these hidden in my stash. Who needs drugs and therapies when you're feeling sick? Deviantart is always the best medicine.

A Dramatic Arc?

2011-03-12T22:02:00.001+08:00

Here I am, anticipating a whole hectic week with my arms wide open - with my eyelids half closed, my nose almost dangling from my face, my limbs partially paralyzed. In other words, I have a cold.

I guess I could say that our first exam went by smoothly, except for some mistakes caused by my own carelessness. Some things never change, do they? :\

Exposition

I don't understand why would they put Add Math as out first paper of the year. My worries were unnecessary, turns out the paper was easy. Then came Chinese and Malay Essays, which miraculously I did quite well. It's all luck, I guess. Coincidentally, the essays that I've been studying, are exactly the ones that came out in the exam.

Rising Action

Day 2 started off with Math. My weakest subject after Physics. And just as I predicted, I sucked, so badly that I don't even dare to count how many rounds I'll be running around the field. Our Math teacher targeted 95 as our passing mark, and those who got less.. Well, round and round the field they go. And then there's the killer English Essay. Let me tell you, I suck at descriptive essays. And then they had to make us do what we hated. There's only one title, no choices: The Happiest Day In My Life. Right, now, seriously what am I supposed to write about? Ugh. Chemistry was uneventful, I can't even remember what was on the paper, now.

Climax

AND WE ARE AT THE PEAK. THE SUMMIT. The terrifying Chinese and Moral. The ever-so-awesome Biology. Did you know that I spent almost 6 hours, trying to digest 12 Chinese Idioms and 36 Moral Definitions the day before? Did you know that when I reached school on that day, turns out I don't really have to memorize all of the definitions but only part of them? Did you know that, when I look at the questions for those Idioms, I realized I don't even have to memorize to get them all right. DID YOU KNOW? No, you don't.

Falling Action

Sejarah (History) is always the murderer, no matter how much I liked it. I mean, how could you not love the first 2 chapters? It has no Islamic related topics in it, and we're studying about GREEK and ROME. Tell me you love them. But then, when I'm so confident about something, fate has to tear me apart. I'm not really sure but I think I might have just lost 20 marks in History. Shit. Civic, well, it doesn't mean much. English doesn't really require revisions, too.

Denouement

Yes, last day. Last freaking day of torment, the day we are set free, the day that we all longed for. Oh, I had fever the day before. Tragic. And so, I only took a quick look at my reference book and then I went to bed. And apparently I sucked at it. I think I might fail, yippeee. And for our last paper of the week: BM. Thank god I knew how to answer the questions, since I slept through almost every lesson.

All I can do is pray, hard.

Star Education Fair 2011

2011-02-19T20:31:00.001+08:00

Date: 19th & 20th February 2011 (Saturday & Sunday)
Time: 11.00am - 7.00pm
Venue: Penang International Sports Arena (PISA)

It was a last-minute-planned trip. We made the final decision to go to the Star Edu Fair 20 minutes before school ended today. Well, what can I say? We're fast and efficient.

Why did I wanted to go in the first place? Because my friend won a netbook last year, another won vouchers to a buffet, and a lot of the others won prizes. I don't know if I'm going to college, my hopes aren't high on this. I'll be bracing myself for Sixth Form, because I simply could not afford to get into any colleges.

The Education Fair was nothing like I previously imagined. I can't describe how I feel when I see all those universities lined up right in front of me. There's still a long time before graduation, but I think I'm pretty sure of what I want to be. Although, often, the things I want - aren't always there for me. And then there's the economical problem I'm dealing with, which makes everything seemed even more out of reach.

Like I said before (or did I?), I've chosen Science stream - not because I was forced or anything, but simply because I love Science. I love Biology especially. But most of the colleges, even Medical-based ones, don't come with that specific field I want to venture in. And maybe you might think it's a joke that I might consider studying Mythology. But then, apparently not much of these Us - or shall I say, none of these Us - provide these courses.

Our very first stop was KDU, and you guessed it: They don't have courses on Medics. Fine then, I thought. Then we split out into groups, because all five of us are interested in different fields. Medics, Business, Mass Communication, Engineering and Interior Designing. At the end of the day I realized, I might be too picky about what I want. My hands were holding on to a large stack of University/College flyers and brochures, but I still can't find the course I want.

But nonetheless, I'm glad I went to the fair. At least now I have a better understanding of courses the colleges provide. I'm going to look through all those brochures once again, let's hope I'll be able to decide where the path ahead of me leads to.

I Know

2011-02-19T00:56:00.001+08:00

It has only been in my life for less than a year. But the fact is undeniable.

That feeling you get when you miss something really badly and you think you've lost it forever and it might never come back to you again? That feeling, when you're really really really really in love with something that you go to sleep thinking, dreaming of it? Yeah, multiply that for about nine or ten times and that's exactly how I'm feeling right now.

I've never loved anything as much as this (once again, Greek Mythology is an exception). I've never even imagined I might be involved in any sports at all. And now, I can't wait till Tuesday afternoon. My fingers are suffocating and I need my life back, NOW.

I miss bringing albums to the alley. I miss naming all those pins with names of celebrities. I miss watching them play Tap Tap Revenge 4 on my iPad. I miss eating McDonald's before the competition. I miss cursing teams from other school and then laugh like it's nobody's business. I miss covering up my ears while someone screams in the elevator. I miss everything about it -.-

And there's still so much more.

Cultural and Heritage Celebration

2011-02-13T10:26:00.002+08:00

Note: Camera battery died a lot earlier than I thought, so I'll just have to go hunt for more photos till I can post them up.

Does anybody know where the UNESCO World Heritage Site in Penang is? Well, frankly I don't. Until I went to the Celebration a.k.a . 辛卯百兔喜迎春新春文化庙会 yesterday. It's somewhere around Chulia Street, Jalan Masjid Kapitan Keling if I'm not wrong. The event is thrown partly to celebrate George Town's recognition as a UNESCO World Heritage city.

I went there with the rest of out school reporters, and I have to say, it was epic. It could be even more fun if it weren't for the rain. From 3p.m. to 12 midnight visitors can wander through the streets to explore the different cultural traditions of the city.

If you want to see traditional Chinese performing arts, this is the place to go. Lion dances and Chingay performances will compete for your attention, just as you're sampling the delicious food that comes with any Chinese New Year celebration!

The whole Heritage site is divided into multiple portions for the event. Each portion exhibits different types of Chinese cultures. The whole place was nothing but packed and crowded, it was really really hard for us to move especially because it was raining and everybody had their umbrellas out. We also met a number of foreign tourists and talked to them! Well, it was actually one of our assignments to interview them but we had a lot of fun! They are so friendly compared to those local people. We met Germans, Americans and a Canadian, oh and also some from Iran. They are all so amazing.

I didn't have the chance to buy something to eat over there, despite the fact that food was one of the main attractions. It was raining and we had to stick with the group -.- But as we walked I could smell the scent of local - delicious - Penang food from everywhere and it got me hungrier and hungrier -.- In the end I had to ask Mum and Dad to buy me noodles and I ate my dinner at 11.30p.m. at home.

Here's a link to an article from TheStar.com regarding the celebration.

God Makes No Mistakes

2011-02-10T17:22:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow.

The day I've been waiting for since last year's Video Music Awards (VMA) at Nokia Theater. For those who don't know, Gaga - as she'd promised - announced the title, and even sang the chorus of her new record on stage when she won the Artist of The Year award.

Two weeks ago, Gaga has already leaked out the full lyrics of Born This Way to fans. She's definitely creating a lot of hype here. Instead of at the Grammy Awards this year (which is on next Monday), the song will premier tomorrow! And let's all look forward to her awesome and godly performance at the Grammy's, too.

Yes, just a few more hours until the premier of Born This Way and I can't wait. Now, who's with me?

《六弄咖啡馆》 — 藤井树

2011-02-06T15:30:00.003+08:00

人生六弄:
人生，像走在一条小巷中，每一弄都有可能是另一个出口，也可能是一条死胡同。
生在一个与一般人不同的家庭中，是我人生的第一弄；
爱上了你，是我人生的第二弄；
注定般的三百六十公里，是我人生的第三弄；
失去了你，是我人生的第四弄；
母亲的逝去，是我人生的第五弄；
在这五弄里，我看不见所谓的出口，出现在我面前的，尽是死胡同。

该是结束的时候了，是该说再见的时候了，
再见，世界，是我人生的第六弄。

Highly Recommended :D Hey, I read Chinese fiction. Surprise.

I Love You

2011-02-03T00:38:00.002+08:00

Please come back :)

Remember when I spent my CNY in Johore with you, 6 years ago? That was the best Chinese New Year celebration I've ever had in my life. And may that be the last too.

I'm apologize for not turning on my party mode on CNY. I can't. Because celebrating makes me feel traumatic.

I want my uncle back :(

Butterfly Wings - Owl City

2011-01-30T16:38:00.001+08:00

If I was a raindrop
Would you be my thunder storm?
It's cold so surround me
With rain clouds to keep me warm

I feel like I'm falling
So darling, don't let me go
The thought is appalling
But should I slip away
Into the stormy sea will you remember me?

Asleep in our warm cocoons
We dream of lovely things
We're both gonna wake up soon
So we hope that tomorrow brings
Us our butterfly wings

If I was a grain of sand
Would you be Miami Beach?
So dusty with starlight
Close your eyes and cuddle close to me

I'll try not to wake you
Or make a sound while you're dozing off
But in the night should the high tide
Sweep me away from you
Tell me again, my dear, will you be waiting here?

Whenever we leave the ground
And take to the sky
I'll smile as I'm gazing down
'Cause I've always wondered why
We won't need feathers to fly

2011-01-15T14:53:00.000+08:00

Desperately craving for Coke. And this picture is pretty :)

Look at the date, people, it's January 15. Today's a Saturday and it's the end of the second week of school. I apologize for the lack of updates, it's been two extremely busy weeks. My schedules, except on Sundays, are literally full. So full, that I don't even have time to take naps in the afternoon like I used to every single day.

Repeating the same routine everyday makes me feel like I have autism. And because of the 1M1S system by the Ministry of Education, I added Bowling to my extra-curriculum list so that I don't have to go for my house practice every Thursday afternoon.

So it's Saturday and I can finally sit down and stare at my computer again, like those good old times. I used to think it's lifeless staring like that, doing nothing else. But now, it's something that I'll never get to do again (except weekends maybe).

And another thing about Form 4. HOMEWORK. HOMEWORK. AND TWO EXTRA PERIODS AFTER SCHOOL ON FRIDAYS. Which is sick. Well, the homework part is alright to me because I actually like doing them and it makes me feel good after finishing all of them in a short period of time. But then the two extra periods without lunch break is just ridiculous. So from now on I have to starve myself every Friday, and get Gastric. It's like I'm on a diet- just kidding.

Right now I've got to do my homework. And there's a lot.

Happy Birthday Nina

2011-01-09T14:12:00.001+08:00

Nina Dobrev. As known as Elena Gilbert - slash- Katherine Pierce in Vampire Diaries.

Nina with Ian.

Happy Birthday, beautiful.

MMXI

2011-01-01T02:10:00.000+08:00

Happy 2011, guys.

Yeah. Bet I'll get pretty grades in Chemistry. Haha kidding.

I'm unofficially SIXTEEN! I obviously need a fresh new start for this turning point of my life. I'm going to make the best of 2011, and don't you try to bring me down :)

Gutter!

2010-12-31T19:05:00.002+08:00

The last time I went bowling... was during PMR. Yes, DURING. So due to the twitchy-ness of our fingers, we decided to revive our (professional *cough*) bowling skills.

Lunch @ Old Town

Zher Wei.

Moi. Haha.

Tze Yang. Err, Gaga.

And Horyian =)

Bowling @ Premium Lanes

Have you ever seen celebrities bowl?

First game. Guess who am I. I'll give you a hint - I won. Haha.

When was the last time I got over 100? I suck man. This was out of pure luck I guess.

Somewhere there in the middle my hand just went super cranky on me.

LOL This is awesome.

I fail, as usual.

Isn't it a little but unfair, that someone keeps getting over 100 points? o_O

Videos

Blogger just sucks at uploading, and I'm lazy to upload it to Facebook. I guess you'll just have to drool for them. (or not)

I Rock

2010-12-28T15:39:00.001+08:00

I was ranting the other day about my PMR results, because my Mum sort of helped me calculate my marks, and told me that it's pretty hard for me to get an A in Chinese. And I do recall that I got 13 out of 40 questions wrong in my Malay paper. So guys, this is prove that I'm not ranting out of boredom.

But looks like I don't have to worry at all. Lmao.

Heng Ee High School forever.

Tell Me

2010-12-22T18:11:00.001+08:00

I'll do fine. Tell me I'll be okay. Tell me I'm gonna survive this ordeal. Tell me I'm going to make it.

Tell me I'm thinking too much.

Guilt is going to haunt me tonight. Guilt for being a perfectionist, guilt for being self-centered. Hate me, for being a brat and a moron for as long as I remember.

Tron: Legacy

2010-12-16T23:14:00.004+08:00

I almost hyperventilated when I saw this sexy Light Cycle.

Gosh, imagine what would it be like to have a spin in this beauty. And with a super hot guy riding it, it looks awesomer than ever.

Behold. The awesomest movie of the decade. Well, at least that's what I think. Sci-Fi movies never fail to get me hooked.

Garrett Hedlund.

He has perfect features, like everyone else in the movie LOL. Can't believe I'm describing him as - HOT. I can't freaking get his face out of my mind now!

And Olivia Wilde.

Did I mention I love their cool high tech outfits? And each of them has a disc on their back, which stores their information, and knowledge too - Whatever's there inside their mind. And the disc is awesome when it comes to killing people. The way it slices through the body of those people - or programs - , and they instantly shatter into gazillions of tiny crystalline pixels. MegaWOW.

Sam Flynn:What am I supposed to do?
Gem: Survive.

Quorra: You father was the creator.
Sam: Where do I find him?
Quorra: Make it there alive, and he will find you.

Something's wrong with me btw, I didn't cry after movies these days. I used to cry after every time I come out of the cinema. Weird eh?

P.S. Went to J.Cool, Sushi King, and Popular with Shuenny after the rest of the group went home. =)

Update:

J.Cool Yoghurts!

Donuts.

I took this. Longan yoghurt and Oreology =)

Yours truly.

Credits to Shuenny for the photos.

Master Choo Kitchen

2010-12-16T00:32:00.001+08:00

My second trip to 1st Ave today. Well, we went there only because of this restaurant.

Master Choo Kitchen @ 1st Avenue. Located on the 3rd floor. You can't miss it.

The interior design is magnificent, like those Chinese palaces. Well, almost like one.Check out the ceiling. Wow.

The whole restaurant has only dim lights. No bright ones. Which is why the photos I took are all in the hue of yellow.

The lantern on top of our table.

The menu. I don't know why is this a little blur than the other photos.

Shanghai Crab Dumplings. Something like that, I guess.

Grilled Fish Fillet. My lunch =)

Fried rice; French Fries and Mushroom Sauce.

The mushroom sauce is awesome. The fries also has a different taste than the usual ones we eat in restaurants. It's like they have a recipe of their own.

Highly recommended. The food there is superb, affordable and reasonable. I went there with my family. A total of 6 persons, only cost us less than RM80. Seriously people, go try!

The Chronicles of Narnia

2010-12-14T15:42:00.000+08:00

The Voyage of The Dawn Treader.

The Dawn Treader. I'm in love with the name, and I'm in love with the ship.

Look at it. How could anyone not be overwhelmed by it's elegance? It's beautiful isn't it =)

Georgie Henley aka Lucy Pevensie. This is her in The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe.

Now look at her. She's pretty and even prettier in this outfit.

Like I said, the third installment is as good as the first and the second. I don't know where I should start. Narnia is too breathtaking to be true, you know. I love everything about it. Or maybe it's because I love myths.

I love Aslan. I know it's weird, but I really really love him. Like Lucy does, I guess. And he gives good advices Lmao. He's really wise, and he's not old, like usually stories and movies would portray someone wise as an old man or stuffs like that. I'm splashing crap here.

I love the landmarks too. Narrowhaven, Dark Island, Island of Ramandu and the Lone Islands. And the map! Oh, the magical map the wizard showed Lucy, Edmund and Caspian. I want the map!

P.S. I love you, C.S. Lewis.

Day Out

2010-12-14T14:06:00.000+08:00

It's a little freaky that I sort of went out a lot with my family these days. Well, as long as I don't have to talk (or interact) with them, then I'm cool.

Narnia is superbly wonderful. More in the next post.

Right now I'll just post some pictures I took during the outing.

Nando's. It's a one in a million chance that I get to eat Nando's. Mom has vouchers so we went to eat there, otherwise it's impossible for me to go there. Dang.

The sausages are heaven. I'm in love.

I need a DSLR. Sigh.

Oh, and I bought Famous Amos cookies for the very first time!

They are awesome, seriously. Chocolate Chips and Pecans. You can't imagine how good this is. Take a bite and it brings you straight up to Olympus. I'm telling you it's good. Really really good. It's on my book shelf now and I don't want to eat it because the packing is just too pretty. And the cookies are way too precious.

Oh god, what is wrong with me?

P.S. I ate Aunty Anne's pretzels too. Dream come true, haha.

Standing Up

2010-12-10T19:00:00.000+08:00

There is constructive criticism. There's professional criticism. And then, there's just being mean.
- Taylor Swift

Finally had time to sit down and think. I may have you know first, that this post is going to be complicated and weird. And this whole thing is not about me, I'm writing this for a good cause. The person I'm referring to may not come across this, but I hope everyone who reads this agrees with me.

We all have feelings, because we're very much human. Feelings, are not things that are supposed to be tossed around like playground toys. Think before you speak or act, as the saying goes. It may be cliche, but that's what we all should do. Because once you say anything that's abrasive, it leaves a wound. The would, may also heal, but it leaves a scar forever.

I don't really know the whole story, and I'm not familiar with whatsoever that's going on. But from the point of view of a passerby, an onlooker, everything is just too wrong. Everything doesn't even make any sense at all. You criticize someone. But before you do, did you ever try to look at yourself in a mirror and reconsider if that someone is worth your critisim?

No, obviously you don't. You're only capable of spilling mean things at a friend - who has been treating you like a sister, like you're already part of her - and walk away like nothing ever happened? If you still have the slightest pinch of humanity in you, I really hope you would turn back and mend those broken pieces scattered on the floor.

I don't have a lot of friends. And I do understand the pain of losing a best friend. I've had a lot of personal experiences. Some friends fade away, after a period a time keeping out of touch. Some, on the other hand, knocks you headfirst on the floor and starts walking the other way without a single repentance. You reach your hand out expecting someone to pull you out from that quicksand you're slowing sinking into, but no one's there anymore. She's long gone.

From all that I've seen, you're nothing more than a female canine species. What is so bad, that you have to turn your best friend into your worst enemy? What was the cause? And, aren't you being a little too unreasonable about this whole thing? Did you ever had the notion to make things like the way they are before? What is wrong with you?

It's funny that you can still laugh and live like there's no tomorrow after what you did to her. I can't believe it. You're THAT pathetic. You're despicable. You're ignorant.

You're just plain mean.

Thanks for making me realize you are such a hypocrite all along.

Rapunzel: A Tangled Tale

2010-12-06T11:47:00.002+08:00

The Queensbay trip yesterday was fun, despite the fact that I went with Mom. Finally had a taste of Station One's Grilled Fish and some Noodles.

I have to say, Rapunzel is a highly recommended movie. So pleeeeeeeeease go watch it. Especially in 3D, it was amazing. The story is way different than the original Rapunzel, of course. And so so so so much better.

I bought Rick Riordan's The Lost Hero - I did, I really did! I'm so over the moon right now. Oh, I bought House Rules too. Heard it's good. Now I have 5 books queuing up for me to finish. The Internet is just to tempting, omigosh.

Now, would someone date me out to watch Narnia? =D

Mission 82: Sing Now

2010-12-04T16:20:00.000+08:00

To Shuenny,

Thanks for the best day of my Post-PMR life, your guitar plucking rocks. And, thanks for being mah audition partner, bro! =D

Sang till my throat's kinda dry because the owner of the room didn't supply me with drinks. *cough*. But it was the best singing day I've ever had. Plus I'm kinda sick of singing alone in my room, too. Haha.

Since Shuenny posted it, I'm not going to write about it again.

View post.

Namewee: 1 Malaysia

2010-12-03T12:46:00.002+08:00

I will support him no matter what.

Deeecember

2010-12-01T15:36:00.001+08:00

Can you believe it? It's December already! Oh Holy Hephaestus, it really is Winter!

The past eleven months just became history, and now the end of 2010 is only a month away. So much has happened since the beginning of the year, recalling them somehow makes me feel much more matured. Haha.

It's such a pity that I don't get to go to those Western Countries, I've never seen snow in my entire life. And ironically Winter is my favorite season of the year. I seriously wanna see snow, and not just any fake polystyrene snow, I want real snow. Snowball fights, sleigh rides - I can't believe something like that would make my wishlist, kids in those countries get to see and do them every year. It's not even a dream, to them.

Okay now, no more negative thoughts, it's December!

Last month of the year, I'm feeling super energetic just thinking of it, I'll have lots of plans to make. Plans, plans, plans. There's this Talent Search held by our school's St. John. I might be doing a duet with shuenny, oh boy oh boy. I get to sing! =)

Oh and you know what? it's December, which means... Sales! Sales everywhere. In that case I'll have to get my ass to Queensbay Mall sooner or else I'll miss all the fun. While we're at it, Imma crash CYC and watch Harry Potter or Narnia. So, who wants a date?

How Do You Kill Boredom?

2010-11-30T17:31:00.001+08:00

By blogging and diverting your boredom to the readers. Hah.

This, obviously is a new phase in my life. Things are changing, in the ways I've never imagined. And I can't possibly recognize myself when I look in the mirror. Worse, or better, I don't know. I don't care, either.

My schedule's semi-full though, I have no idea what am I doing or why am I sitting here writing and ranting about how bored I am. Okay insanity runs in my blood.

Blargh.

TaylorAlisonSwift

2010-11-24T16:09:00.004+08:00

Come on, come on, don’t leave me like this. I thought I had you figured out.

She should keep in mind, there is nothing I do better than revenge.

You need to hear me out, and they said Speak Now.

Do you remember all the city lights on the water? You saw me sought to believe for the first time.

Time turns flames to embers, you’ll have new Septembers.

You gave me roses, and I left them there to die.

All you are is mean, and a liar and pathetic and alone in life and mean.

Your little eyelids flutter ‘cause you’re dreaming so I tugged you in, turn on your favourite nightlight.

PBIM

2010-11-23T20:24:00.000+08:00

What am I posting this for? I don't know.

Penang Bridge International Marathon. Brings back a thread of horrifying memories. And you don't wanna get me started on it.

All I wanna say is, next year, I'm going for it. YES I AM. No more empty promises, no more, no more.

Oh, you might've noticed the new blog skin before you read this. (If you didn't you must be a dimwitted eejit.) Christmas is one month away! Omigosh omigosh. My favourite season of the year! And I could never ever put into words - my love for Winter.

I'm so in love with Ke$ha and Taylor. I don't know why. Awman don't get me started on Taylor. Speak Now is too awesome to be true.

And, and, and, and.

I'm just impressed =)

P.S. Justin Bieber, give Gaga that Artist of The Year award back, you bitch.

Second Glance

2010-11-19T20:02:00.002+08:00

Oh my, oh my.

This blog is about to hibernate, if I don't update soon. Well, here's an update.

Mission 82 is still on the go, though. Holidays are boring, but not always. Went to a few outings with friends, it's kinda fun. I didn't update about those because I didn't have much pictures, so it's gonna be pretty boring. I rather not post anything.

Went to Wsern's house on Wednesday. We're planning on another outing tomorrow. After school activities, that is. And my stupid computer keeps on shutting off itself whenever I play MapleStory. It's like it has a mind of it's own! Now I'm terrified to play Maple.

Need more outings, peeps. C'mon, date me date me.

Oh btw, Mum's an invigilator for SPM. I'm gonna rot at home for like, a month because no one's gonna fetch me anywhere. Unless... Hmm, we'll see about that.

Hmm? Oh the title? Yes, yes of course. I'm reading Jodi Picoult currently.But then the virtual world is just too tempting. I have no idea when will I be finishing it. Still have loads and loads of unfinished books on my shelf.

Everything's kind of smooth. And I just hate uneventful holidays. I seem to have lost interest in everything. Right now, I feel like sleeping because my bedroom's fluorescent lamp is broken, and I have a dim light on only. Sucks.

I really really really miss school. Guys, I miss you all.

Megamind 3D

2010-11-11T11:49:00.000+08:00

So I went to watch Megamind.

The storyline is a little weird. But whatever, it's in 3D! It's awesomely awesome.

I'm sorry for not updating often, guys. It's just that Blogger's a bit cranky on me these days. I'm still posting really really often in my Tumblr, though. Blame blogger. Can't sign in, can't upload photos, can't publish.

Argh, and my internet connection sucks.

P.S. I'm a Mapler now. Well, nothing to be happy about though. Everyone seems to be playnig Maple again nowadays. I mean, from my class. Hope I don't get too hooked up. Form 4 is supposed to be glorious.

All Hallow's Eve

2010-10-31T14:53:00.001+08:00

Happy Halloween!

No trick-or-treating, no costume parties, no candies and chocolates. That's how I celebrate Halloween.

Well, since we're at this, why don't I post some Victoria Frances up here?

These are a few of my favorites. I wanted to upload more, but Blogger's uploader seems a little bit cranky today.

'Tis now the very witching time of night,

when churchyard yawns and hell itself breathes out
Contagion to this world.

- William Shakespeare

Nothing on Earth so beautiful as the final haul on Halloween night.

- Steve Almond

Men say that in this midnight hour,
The disembodied have power
To wander as it liketh them,
By wizard oak and fairy stream.

- William Motherwell

Live and let die.

Elena

2010-10-26T19:53:00.005+08:00

Wrinkled parchment, yellowed lace,
Time-worn pearls, buttons, hooks,
Satin skirts whispering with worn hems,
Age within the ageless face
Shown only in the artless grace,
The knowing smile, composed, serene,
Of one whose nights are filled with life
And days spent deep in sleep's embrace.

Youthful in each curve and dip
From cheek and eye to swaying hip,
Beside the fire she sits and knits,
Warm wool between her fingertips.
She remembers blood and rain,
Pleasure, joy, sorrow, pain,
Wild nights running with the wolves,
Or flying with me over the plain.

The youthful body, childlike grace;
The dancing lightness of her steps;
Belie the years we both have lived.
Though now she dresses not in lace,
Satin, silk, or antique pearls,
Still it is thus I see her now
Whenever I dream of her by day
While wrapped, content, in her embrace.

Elena: Lover, fairy-light,
Yet stronger than the steel of swords;
Mind to mind and soul to soul,
Heart to heart together bound.
Bound together, yet as free
As eagles dancing on the wind;
And thus I hope it well may be
For us, for all eternity.

by Nicolas Alecsandri. Printed by permission.
(March 26, 1994; Evaonne F. Hendricks)

P.S. Got this off the Internet.

Errors in PMR English Paper

2010-10-24T17:15:00.003+08:00

I WISH to highlight some glaring errors which appeared in English Paper 1 of the recent PMR (Penilaian Menengah Rendah) examination.

Candidates had to read through a passage and answer questions 29 to 34. I was both disappointed and surprised as the passage had some serious errors.

In the first paragraph, the author wrote: “Being a Penangite, it was indeed fun to go somewhere far as it would be a change from my normal routine…”
This is a classic dangling modifier in which the author refers it (the trip) as a Penangite.

There were two other flaws in the second paragraph:
The first one “Drop me off at a small town” should correctly read as “in a small town” while the other one “I went to enquire at the bus station” should in fact read “I went to enquire about the bus schedule at the bus station”.

The writer wrote in the third paragraph: “… I alighted where most buses stopped for passengers to get refreshments and stretch their legs.”
Did he or she really mean he or she got off the bus where most buses stopped for passengers to get refreshments and stretch their legs?

Then, in the fourth paragraph, the passage read: “I enquired from someone and was told to wait at a bus stop across the road. Hence, I waited eagerly…”
The word “hence” means “for that reason” and to me, it is not an appropriate word to use in that context. The word “hence” is a formal word, it should not be included in that context and is not followed by a comma but a noun, or noun phrase.
For example, “He was involved in a serious road accident – hence the scars.”

This is like a square peg in a round hole. Hence, the writer or teacher has poor diction.

Furthermore, the usage, “I enquired from” is not a standard form of English, it should be “I enquired of”.

I was fuming with anger when I read the last sentence of the passage: “This will definitely be one experience that I will never forget!”
What was the author trying to say - did the experience happen or did it not? It should read: “That was definitely an experience that I will never forget!”
Did the author imply that the experience is yet to happen? The correct one should be: “That was definitely an experience that I will never forget!”

In question 32, “The word alighted means: A - got down…”. In standard English, we do not say “get down the bus”, we use “get off the bus”.

In question 33, “The bus stopped at Yong Peng to allow the passengers to: A – take a nap; B – relax themselves; C – check into a hotel…”
The phrase “check into a hotel” (in C) should in fact read “check in at a hotel” or “check in to a hotel”.
The word “relax” (in B) is not used with reflexive pronouns like myself, yourself , themselves, etc.

There were at least four or five grave grammatical mistakes in this PMR 2010 English Paper 1 passage.
It is a shame that such errors have appeared in the language paper of a major national exam!

Even the reviewers, who must be English Language specialists, were not able to detect the mistakes.

There is a Russian proverb that aptly says, “A fish rots from the head down’’.

If we want to improve the standard of English in Malaysia, we have to retrain our English teachers comprehensively and thoroughly.

We have to do it before they start teaching our children. Please do something about this situation fast for the sake of our next generation.

MR LIM
Via e-mail

Source : http://thestar.com.my/education/story.asp?file=%2F2010%2F10%2F24%2Feducation%2F7228724&sec=education

P.S. After reading this, I can only say, 'Tsk tsk tsk. Malaysia Boleh.'. But then, why didn't I realize when I was actually taking the test? Guess my English isn't that good either, eh?

Well, good job Malaysian examiners. Way to go :)

Tying The Knot

2010-10-24T16:51:00.000+08:00

NEW DELHI (Reuters) - British comedian Russell Brand and U.S. pop singer Katy Perry married on Saturday in a closely guarded traditional Hindu ceremony at an exclusive hotel resort in India's Rajasthan.
While the festivities commenced on the grounds of the Amaan-i-Khas resort in the deeply wooded Ranthambore National Park, a tiger reserve some 100 kilometers south of the fort city of Jaipur, the world's media strained to catch a glimpse.

As the sounds of traditional Rajasthani music drifted from the dozen specially erected tents across the moonlit resort, over 80 international journalists, including 15 British photographers, jostled for space with their telephoto lenses at the gates of the complex, more than 150 meters away.

Private security guards, black screens and a mobile phone ban ensured a veil of secrecy over the wedding after exclusive publicity rights were sold to a London magazine.

"The wedding rituals began around 7 p.m. (9:30 a.m. EDT) and have now (been) completed," Kajod Mal, a local police officer, told Reuters by telephone from Kotwali town, close to the wedding venue. "We sent some of our men there for security."

Brand, who has been seen with henna patterns on his hands, arrived on a decorated horse for the wedding, flanked by camels and elephants, the Press Trust of India news agency reported.

Other reports said Barbadian pop star Rihanna played the maid of honor as a priest chanted Hindu hymns around a sacred fire.

As the sun set through the early evening, the guests, who are staying at two nearby resorts, arrived in cars with blacked-out windows. British singer-songwriter Noel Gallagher was reported to be attending the ceremony, as well as Brand's close friend television presenter Jonathan Ross.

The couple, who landed in Mumbai on Thursday, reportedly chose the resort for their wedding after Brand proposed to Perry at the same location last December. Perry wore an Indian bridal nose ring as she passed through the airport.

Source: http://abcnews.go.com/Entertainment/wireStory?id=11955648

Troubled

2010-10-23T23:37:00.000+08:00

Feelin' a little bit confused and troubled.

I think the phrase 'evading reality' best describes me. Well, I don't know what to do now. I'm so terrified I don't even wanna go to school, and that's a miracle. For the first time ever, I hate school.

This is so damn random.

Good night.

Mission 82: I Love You, Beth Cooper

2010-10-21T15:47:00.004+08:00

A nerdy valedictorian proclaims his love for the hottest and most popular girl in school - Beth Cooper - during his graduation speech. Much to his surprise, Beth shows up at his door that very night and decides to show him the best night of his life.

Unbelievable, I've missed so many movies at the cinema before PMR. Maybe it's not about PMR, it's about I don't have enough cash. Lmao.

This movie is awesome. They did a very good job at making me laugh through the whole movie. Although, Dennis s portrayed as a guy who keeps getting beat up by his cyborg-like schoolmates. There's always a streak of blood down his nostrils. Gross.

Did I mention that Hayden Panettiere looks gorgeous? I love her. She's really really really pretty, after Nina Dobrev and Amanda Seyfried, of course.

Is this what they meant by 'short and sweet'?

P.S. I think the stupid DVD missed out some of the scenes.

Mission 82: 'We're in the bus!' 'Wahhhhhhh.'

2010-10-19T17:20:00.001+08:00

We went on a field trip with the school today. Three buses, three classes, but who cares about the other classes? We already had enough fun at the back of the bus.

All I can remember is us laughing so much, lol. Oh yes, and singing too. I got so high that I practically sang the whole time I was on the bus. Lady Gaga, Adam Lambert, Ke$ha, Shakira, Eminem, etc. Credits to Ty's phone for the music. Lmao.

We went to an old jetty just outside the entrance to Penang's Forest Reserve (Taman Negara). What we did there was basically taking pictures, shouting and laughing.

Butterfly Farm

Out of the 4 times I've been here, this one is the best I've ever had.

I finally know how to get a butterfly onto your palm.

Me and Xin Ni.

My current Facebook profile picture.

Yun Shang, Moi :)

On the way back from the Nutmeg factory the guys suddenly went really lame and said things like, 'Look, the bus is going down the slope!' and the rest of us would go 'WAHHHHH!'. We really had so much fun. 'There's a very tall tree!' 'Wahhhhhhhhh!'

Butterfly farm, Jetty and Nutmeg factory. We went to three places today, altogether. But I still think I had the most fun on the bus =)

Can you see me? Haha.

Forever.

We're so awesome.

I only posted pictures of us at the butterfly farm (because I'm just plain lazy), you can view the rest - which is a lotttttttttt more - from my profile on Facebook. Here's:

My album ;
Shin Jee's first album ;
Shin Jee's second album ;
Jin Young's album ;
Jia Yee's album ;
Xin Ni's album ;
Hor Yian's album

:)

Mission 82: The Last Song

2010-10-18T16:34:00.001+08:00

My second movie, after PMR.

Okay, this movie is really complicated to me. Here's what I understood:

Veronica "Ronnie" Miller (Miley Cyrus) is a girl who dresses like a prostitute and she hates her Dad, because he split up with her Mom and didn't care about her and her brother Jonah. Her Mum took them back to their Dad in a summer and Ronnie was trying her best to get away from the beach house where her Dad lives in. She went to some carnival thing, and met another prostitute named Blaze.

And then for some reason she met Will (Liam Hemsworth) and they both fell in love. They fought for at least twice throughout the movie. And I don't know what happened. Oh I think she was invited to Will's sister's wedding, and something happened. Oh, the sea turtle eggs she found while walking by the beach when she first arrived hatched, after a few weeks or months.

And then yada yada yada. The movie ends with the usual, kiss.

I still don't think it's touching. Maybe it's because of Miley. It's still a good movie worth watching though, because some people think it's amazing. Period.

Mission 82: Ibanez

2010-10-17T19:19:00.003+08:00

What's this?

Yes, your eyes are not deceiving you. I bought an Ibanez V50NJP!

Natural is always the best. The pack comes with 5 picks, an automatic tuner, and a strap (my last one didn't have a strap, eff it).

Yippee! I can finally strum till my fingers bleed. I am so awesome.

I also bought Selena's A Year Without Rain album. Yay me.

Mission 82: Letters To Juliet

2010-10-16T19:52:00.002+08:00

Alright alright, lend me your ears, please.

This mission I'm talking about is all about what I'm going to do after PMR. Which means exactly NOW. I'm sure I'll be updating my blog frequently, so look out for surprises.

This, my friends, is Amanda Seyfried. She has green eyes.

Shuenny borrowed me 9 DVDs this morning in choir. The first one I watch was none other than - 'voila!' - Letters To Juliet. The storyline is just so touching. It's a miracle that I didn't cry (yeah, you heard me). Maybe I'll only cry in theaters, not at home.

Anyways, I love Sophie so so so much. After all she's THE Amanda Seyfried. And Claire is just so sweet. I kinda liked the way they went house by house and received replies like, 'I am Lorenzo Bartolini!'. Hah, hilarious.

And also, I hate Sophie's fiance.

Whee.

The Dead Corpse Awakens

2010-10-11T18:03:00.001+08:00

Yeeeehaw, buckaroos! I'm BACK!

Here's a short update:

1. I survived 7 papers, all there's left is that bloodsucking Chinese.
2. I'm not so sure I can get an A for Malay.
3. Living Skills was awfully easy, or is it just me.
4. I'm a day closer to getting my new Ibanez Acoustic Guitar.
5. Contacts. I'll get them soon.
6. And I'm going to shop till I drop. Need clothes.
7. Bowling tomorrow. Feel my awesomeness :)
8. Queensbay this Sunday. I desperately want a movie spree.

Okay, that's it for now.
Chinese, Chinese, Chinese.

I'll Be Alright

2010-09-03T17:11:00.000+08:00

And the long anticipated holidays arrives.

Last post was on National Day's Eve, and the few posts earlier were mostly emo posts. So it's clear - I'm emo. Haha. But anyway, I'm just glad that the holidays finally comes and I don't have to face all those craps in school. I still miss my friends, though.

To everyone who is reading this blog, it's best that you stay away from me as far as possible from now on. You might notice a slight change in me, which is I'm not smiling and laughing that often anymore, and I'm using a lot more profanities than you can ever imagine. It's not what I want, trust me, but when things get way off their tracks, I can't seem to control my emotions. Humans - even girls - have flaws.

It's funny that I still can laugh when I'm with a few of my best friends - although I'm not sure if I have any at all - in school. When I come home, all of that would always go away instantly and I get all cracky and stuffs around my family. It's probably why I leap right into my room and lock the door as soon as I get home.

I'm sorry for writing this, but this is the only way for me to vent. You can always choose not to read what I've written.

And... I don't want your sympathy.

This time, I've proved myself right. The series of misfortune happening to me proves that I am a failure. I'm completely convinced of that. I used to rant and vent about how much I hate myself. Now I'm sure of it, I was right all along.

Now, everyone knows PMR is only a month away and I'm on the brink of destruction. But, I won't give up just yet. I know I won't. After all it's only one month. Maybe I'll really get all As - if I'm lucky enough. At least by then my efforts wouldn't be wasted. But If I don't....... I'm okay with it too, I guess. I'm a failure after all. Haha.

All blogging activities will be stopped, until 13th of October.

If I survive, that is.

Till then.

Tidal Wave

2010-08-30T23:16:00.002+08:00

Getting my daily dose of Owl City :D

Here's the lyrics for Tidal Wave.

I wish I could cross my arms, and cross your mind
'Cause I believe, you don't fold your paper heart and wear it on your sleeve
All my life, I wish I broke mirrors, instead of promises
'Cause all I see, is a shattered conscience staring right back at me

I wish I could cover all my tracks, completely,
'Cause I'm so afraid
Is that the light at the far end of the tunnel, or just the train?
Lift your arms, only heaven knows where danger grows
And it's safe to say, there's a bright light up ahead and help is on the way

Help is on the way

I forget the last time I felt brave, I just recall insecurity
'Cause it came down like a tidal wave, and sorrow swept over me

Depression, please cut to the chase
And cut a long story short
Oh, please be done, how much longer can this drama afford to run?
Fate looks sharp, severs all my ties, and breaks whatever doesn't bend
But sadly then, all my heavy hopes just pull me back down again

I forget the last time I felt brave, I just recall insecurity
'Cause it came down like a tidal wave, and sorrow swept over me

It hurts just to wake up, whenever you're wearing thin
Alone on the outside, so tired of looking in
The end is uncertain, and I've never been so afraid
But I don't need a telescope to see that there's hope
And that makes me feel brave :)

There you go. I swear I typed this out all on my own.
No 'copy and paste's.

It's Adam Young!

27.8.2010

2010-08-27T20:45:00.001+08:00

Fridays are my lucky days! No kidding.

Got dragged out of bed at 8.45am. Groans. But the thought of going to Gurney - even if it's with my *cough* family *cough* - made me jumped right into the bathroom. Was 9.00am when we left.

Went to MPH and popular. It was awesome, man. I hung in there for, almost, an hour while the others waited outside. (I feel so awesome. Oh wait, I already am.) Then ate at Swensens. Passion Fruit Juice, Penne, and Banana Split. IT. WAS. INCREDIBLE.

I also, went to a music shop. Not Yamaha though. Browsed through some guitars. The guy there recommended a RM500+ Groovy Guitar, which was really really awesome. I liked it. Then he recommended another type, which comes in a set - including the tuner, picks, straps and et cetera. And it only costs RM420! I will buy it after PMR. It's confirmed. Woohoo!

Half way back home, I texted Tze Yang and he said he could go to Queensbay Mall! My first thought was, Yes! I don't have to go home so early! LOL.

Oh, yeah, Mum took me to that temple near Han Chiang. Prayed. Sigh, I used to go there everyday when I was small. You guys know those flats opposite the temple? Yeah, I once lived there when I was little. Went to the temple every single afternoon with my Grandmother.

Finally Mum dropped me off at Queensbay Mall. And the fun starts.

Found TY in Borders. Then went to Artist Gallery, Quiksilver (and finally bought the pencil case.) and the food court. Omigosh, we laughed so much i don't have energy left right now. That's how insane we are, haha.

Took Rapid back home. End of day.

This post is rather boring, I know. Didn't took photos of anything, so, sorry guys!

P.S. I AM SO GOING TO GET MY ENRIQUE ALBUM! *SCREAMS*

Don't Blink

If I Could, I Would

My Glass Is Half Full

Self-Compassion Trumps Self Esteem

Gone Fishing

Februum, Februa

Stayover and Competitions

My Year

2012 Resolutions

The Last Day

New Year's Eve

Le Fin

The Parent Trap

You Are The Apple Of My Eye

Heroes Are Not Made

Winter

Marry The Night: The Prelude Pathétique

J'adore le café!

Just Like That

Adieu

Integrity

Solitude

不要等

Melodramatic

I'll Never

Exam Sentiments

No Place Like Home

Yes, August

Change

Annual G. Meetings

Falling

To Sheryl,

16th of July

Food. Life.

I'm Obssessed With

Lembah Bujang, what?

To The Dark Side

10 Words You Need To Stop Misspelling

Drowsy

The Rise of Kronos

I've spent my whole life looking for you. Now... I release you.

Topsy Turvy

Significance

Woke Up

I Don't Wanna Leave

Willpower

Logarithms, anyone?

Turkish March

Big Bad Wolf

NigaHiga

Moviemania

Eggs

Bad Things

Lucious;

Foundation, Eye Liner and Fake Eyelashes

Victoire!

Sucker Punch

Beastly

Obessive

A Dramatic Arc?

Star Education Fair 2011

I Know

Cultural and Heritage Celebration

God Makes No Mistakes

《六弄咖啡馆》 — 藤井树

Highly Recommended :D Hey, I read Chinese fiction. Surprise.

I Love You

Butterfly Wings - Owl City

Happy Birthday Nina

MMXI

Gutter!

I Rock

Tell Me

Tron: Legacy

Master Choo Kitchen

The Chronicles of Narnia

Day Out

Standing Up

Rapunzel: A Tangled Tale

Mission 82: Sing Now